Warning: Non-Self-Esteem Post, Don't Read If All You're Gonna Do Is Spaz At Me

I suppose that to keep up with tradition...and to keep myself from studying...I must post something. However, horror-upon-horrors, I have nothing to say. Except for depressing and stupid things. Soooo...yeh. Lots of pointless ...s (I forget what they're called in my stupidity) will fill up space nicely as well. And now I have to go try on my grad dress again to make sure it still fits, which it probably doesn't. Of course, that doesn't matter because I'll look horrible in it whether it fits or not. You know, before crap I was slightly looking forward to grad. Then I was looking forward to it. Now it just sucks beyond my wildest nightmares. The ONE good thing today was that I made an appointment for my work medical. But then, that was dampened by the horrible and awkward message I left for Jean. If she fires me for it I will totally understand, why do I never know what to say and even when I DO why do I screw it up beyond recognition??? ARRRRRRRRG. I'm not saying that I WILL actually pass the work medical, I mean, they'll most likely say I'm too out of shape to type away at a computer all summer. Even though I'm much less lazy that most people, not like it does anything for me. Sometimes...most of the time...I hate myself. And then when I bring it up with people they just say "oh, that's not true" and they don't actually try to help which sucks. Of course, that's most likely supposed to be a help and my even expecting people to care/want to help is incredibly selfish of me and now I just hate myself more. Whoo-hoo! Isn't life great? Yes, I know some of you will say "oh, it's fantabulous, I mean WOOT," but unfortunately enough, that is not me. So, I suppose I will have to continue on in my selfish ways which are quite evident by this post. Wow, and all that after saying I had nothing to say. How unexpected. Not that I expect what I did write amounts to anything, but it's nice to ramble on spazzily every once in a while. Which is...a lot. Anyway, that's enough ranting for the day. So goodbye, have a good one.