Socially Inept

Yes, that is me. I am socially inept. Is that a problem? I mean, loads of people say that the internet is such a bad way to communicate. Well, unfortunately I'm not able to chat it up in person like most other people can so...don't tell me it's my fault. If you've ever talked to me you'll know how much I have to say (at least when talking to anyone I don't know really well), and it's not because I actually HAVE nothing to say that I don't say anything. It's because I'm afraid that what I say will..I don't know...make people think badly of me? Yeh. And everyone says that all you have to do is SAY what you have to say and it'll get easier to talk to people. Well, it doesn't work that way for me. Sorry that I was told to shut my mouth a few too many times when I was younger. It tends to make a child think talking to people is a bad thing when your teacher calls your house 4 times a year to complain about your talking. Now it's ingrained in me and I can't get over it. It just makes me mad sometimes when people ask me why I talk so much on MSN as it's "so impersonal". Sorry, but I have issues with coming up with things to talk about in person. Which makes me understand why some people stop or virtually stop talking to me (I usually don't actually confront people about that, cuz you know, it only makes things worse, and you know, I'm too shy). But wotevs. It's who I am and if you don't like it go away. AND, for your information, I've had some of the most helpful, deep and interesting conversations over MSN and although that probably sounds pretty sad to some people, MSN is usually the place where I can actually express myself. Because on MSN people can't see you and you can't see them (yes, I realise that was slightly redundent). And for some reason that makes it easier. Thank you, that was my rant. I was actually going to rant about something else but that was too "graphic" so it became this. Goodnight.