K guys, yesterday I wasn't bawling out of sadness (I was too shocked that we actually told to be sad), I was bawling out of relief. I thought I was all good with the issues and such, but now I'm not. I really should be happy with how things worked out since I'm so pessimistic and I thought it were turn out in the WORST possible way and it didn't. But you know, I feel the pain (no one is to blame for this but me, and really I'm not to blame either cuz I did NOT choose any of this-so no one feel bad but me!). And I thought I could handle it, now I'm not so sure. So, now that we all know I'm an idiot (even more so than before)...I don't know what now. Stupid life. Oh, one thing good about today was that I did good on my math test!!!! Yeehaw. And sorry, there's gonna be no song competition today because I'm unable to appreciate music today (and I can only remember the lyrics to a song that I've already done, I'm slightly on the skewed side of things today). Music used to be the only thing that could cheer me up, I always thought I could turn to my music when I was depressed. Well, so much for that idea. I can't believe how easily I can pretend to be happy (not speaking of the moment, but you really have no idea how good an actress I really am-when it comes to real life that is). And now I'm putting together my flyers for my first route tomorrow-10 flyers! Tons man. Well, see you guys. (((hugs))) :: sniff ::